rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
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Wednesday, September 27, 2006
-2:57:00 PM
some updates..18/9Poly Spiritual Multiplier Conference (SMC): Refresh! ---->themeSMC was great! at the same time, really.. Refreshed! They showed a video on a sermon..Gone Fishing- The Challenge of Staying on Missionby Joseph StowellJesus asked Peter 3 times.. "do you truly love me?"I never really understood why Jesus keep asking and what does He mean when He asked Peter this question..but through the sermon.. I begin to understand a little..Jesus is saying that, " I will know that you love me when you care about what I care about" - People! since Jesus also replied "Feed my lambs","Take care of my sheep", "Feed my sheep"It's always about people. That's what He was passionate about.. people who are not perfect.. people who have failures.. He wants them all. (am reminded of myself..)The speaker also reminded us not to say "I quit" to Jesus. (Peter sort of did that)Instead, Jesus reminded Peter of the moment of his call.. the moments he said 'yes' to Jesus. Remembering why he said that.After that was message on discipleship by Ying Kheng.. hee.. always interesting and always involving her stories in Korea, India..(places she went for missions) hahah..super funny.Serene, ah ji they all also there.. Sara went too despite her sprained ankle (encouraged by her).. Serene, ah ji and me were discussing where to go for Gen12ii.. they super excited lar..lol.. ah ji wanted to challenge herself and go EA.. serene also rather keen on EA. haha.Ah ji really hoped we could all go to the same country.. hee.. afterall, we've been through together during Australia mission trip! me? I couldn't decide yet.. so many places.. and most importantly, where does God want to bring me to? Have to start seeking/talking to God abt this.. rekindling the passion for mission.SMC ended rather behind time.. but I'm glad I stayed on :)Even though I'm supposed to meet Chermaine 7.15pm at Dhoby Ghaut =Pto catch Singapore Dreaming.. (as part of our National education thingy.. and we could get one NE point for that.. of cos, with a review and some qns to be answered before we can get the point~) -_-''' heh..Sorry cher.. for being late.. >_<''hee.. and thanks for understanding!
Monday, September 11, 2006
-10:55:00 PM
heh.. been so long since I last blogged..
6th sept- 8th sept: Poly Summit
Hmm.. what is a Poly Summit?
It is a retreat where leaders/potential leaders of crusade ministry(diff. polys) come tgt to learn as leaders and to plan for future directions of ministry? heh.. forgot what it means exactly..nvm =P
First time going for poly summit.. excited.. (dunno what to expect also) blur blur go there.. hee..
oh ya, actually not able to make it due to high fever 2 days before the retreat.. felt very groggy and feverish, 39.9 degrees, i think..(taken at the doctor's) But, God was indeed gracious and healed me the day just before the retreat, not fully well yet, but fit enough to make my way to the retreat lah.. heh
hmm.. learnt alot during the summit. To summarize..
We need to have a yieldedness to Christ and remain in Christ (to stay connected with Christ by being obedient and by prayer), close walk with God.
A spiritual leader is not a compass to point people to where they should go.. but to be a spiritual compass to point people to where God is leading.
And what captured me the most is when Christine shared on the passage of Haggai chpter 1. God reminded me of the life that I am living.. am I living comfortably in my comfortable house(nt literally.. but as in doing things that is within my comfort zone) and yet the house of the Lord remains in ruins? "Give careful thought to your ways.." this was repeated twice. It helped me to reflect.. am I still living my own life and satisfied with the salvation I already had while many people out there have not yet heard of Jesus? is what I am doing pleasing to God?
hmm.. just some thoughts :)
Btw, really enjoyed the fellowship (Elsa, Candice,Eileen, Christine, Johnson, Eugene, Mylene too) playing taboo and all the lame jokes and nt forgetting the 'fart' topic! and the animated black ants!! hahahaha.. chio dao peng.. =) oh, and also other poly's crusaders (Ah Ji, auntie, Josel.. many more!) hee.. it was Great!
11th sept
Anyway, EXAMS are finally OVER!! (at least for the time being..) -_-'''
Hahaha.. I'm gonna enjoy the hols and make it a meaningful one..hee
Hmm.. but at the same time.. as I wait for the results to be out..
felt really scared.. don't really have confidence that I'll pass all my modules.
Have I really gave all my best? I started to wonder..
What if I have to retake the modules? what will happen when mother knows abt it?
Will she stop me from serving in church or crusade?
My heart sanked.. at the thought of these.
I don't know..
What will come today and what comes after tomorrow..
uncertainties of the future groped my heart once again..
I have no idea of what is going to come.
Just to share a song the has been playing in my mind these few days..
as I keep thinking about future stuff and worrying over my studies and life's issues,
God used this song and ministered to my heart..
I Don't Know About Tomorrow
I don't know about tomorrow;
I just live from day to day.
I don't borrow from its sunshine
For its skies may turn to grey.
I don't worry for the future,
For I know what Jesus said.
And today I'll walk beside Him,
For He knows what is ahead
Chorus:
Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand.
Every step is getting brighter
As the golden stairs I climb;
Every burden's getting lighter,
Every cloud is silver-lined.
There the sun is always shining,
There no tear will dim the eye;
At the ending of the rainbow
Where the mountains touch the sky
I don't know about tomorrow;
It may bring me poverty.
But the one who feeds the sparrow,
Is the one who stands by me.
And the path that is my portion
May be through the flame or flood;
But His presence goes before me
And I'm covered with His blood.
I don't know about what will come tomorrow..
Clueless about what tomorrow may bring..
But, there is one thing for sure..
I know who holds tomorrow..
I know who holds my hand..
Jesus.
and that is enough to keep life worth living.. because He lives!
=)
Results to be out soon!!! =S
